yesterday has been quite a tough day for me… so has the weeks before yesterday been. this is because of the reason that i broke up with my most recent boyfriend. it is very difficult for me to get over him. this is because he is my second true love. my first true love would always remain as merely a dream. i would never have thought that v may be together for long. this is because of the vast differences that v share. i have never met any guy like him before. he's so special, to the extend that no one can ever be compared to him. u people out there might call it obsession. but to me, it is taken as seriously as anything important could b. anyway, about yesterday… i have been crying a lot. i found that i couldn't stand it anymore. i broke down yesterday. its almost been a month since the first day we broke up… and since then, i have told myself to stay strong. life has to go on. i cant just wallow myself in depression anymore. i still have a long journey to embark in my life. how am i ever gonna improve if i still cling on to my past? but i came to realization that such a thing is often easier said then done. and so i broke down yesterday, while i spoke to his mom. his mom still adores me… thank God for that…!! his mom has been very supportive to me. she said that no matter what happens, she'd still welcome me to thier house. but i'm afraid that if i ever go over to thier house, i wouldn't be able to bear the crushing fact that we've already broke up almost a month ago. it might all sound too simple and boring… but once u've expereinced it urself, u'd find that it is very difficult to hold back the feelings that has always been there for far too long a time. mira; i'm sure u'd understand what i'm talking about…. and my feeelings too… i love you mira…. and i know you do too… muah muah!!! kisses for u my bestie… hee hee…